So today I got home and was all excited because I wanted to go on a walk with my little sister and was pretty sure she'd be excited too. Well, she has some work pages to do and I go into my room to grab her some gum that I know she likes for her to chew on while she finishes. I open the container...and half of it's already gone. Only about 3 pieces should have been missing. So I asked her about it. She said she didn't do it. There has been many times when she's come in my room and eaten things, used things, moved things, etc, and I've told her again and again not to. Apparently it hasn't worked. I figured out she was lying, and my parents said that she had to write sentences; so she did. Needless to say I was disappointed in her for not only stealing from me again, but lying about it- again. I told her that God didn't want her to do that, that her friends wouldn't be able to trust her if she lied even just to people in her family, and that we do what is right because we love God, and we love our family. Stealing and lying doesn't show people that you love them.
In any case, we didn't go on a walk, to my disappointment. She wrote me a note though, under Mom's instruction, and asked if I'd forgive her and that she was sorry. She was asleep by the time I got home to see it on my bed, so I'll talk to her about it tomorrow :)
...What is the point of all this? Well, I realized what God feels like when His children lie and cheat and steal. He loves them —us—; He's disappointed in us, especially with how many other times He's forgiven us. It hurts Him...He knows it's not good for us. But same as I've forgiven my sister (praise God; I'm thankful He helped me to forgive her so easily), He forgives us- over and over again. GLADLY. Our sins pull us away from Him, and He doesn't want that. He wants us to be close. He loves us. And there is nothing we can do to make Him stop loving us. He will always forgive us. Is there something(s) you think are impossible for Him to forgive? You've messed up too much, He won't take you back now; it's not worth it. I've seen this mindset eat away at my friend, and myself at times. It is a LIE. There is NOTHING my little sister could do to make me refuse to forgive her if she asked; and even if she didn't ask. There is NOTHING you can do that His sacrifice cannot cover: that is demeaning His power. I think a lot of times we're just afraid to really fess up to it. To give it over to Him and go on; to let go. The guilt becomes part of us, and we don't want to change. But is it worth it? Is separation from your King, possibly for eternity, worth holding on to guilt that causes you pain anyway, when He could take it all away? Let go. He will remove it from you as far as the east is from the west. He's got you, and He'll never let go. He loves you :)
Ps. If you ever need to talk about something, let me know. I'm here, and I love to listen and just be a friend. :)
What is forgiveness? How do you know that you've truely been forgiven.
ReplyDeleteIt's been awhile, since I've visited your blog. (sorry, I've been extra busy these last couple of months.)
But I had been praying that things would work out with you and your sister.