Blessed be the name...

Why do I ever doubt Him? Doubt that He loves me? Doubt that He's there for me? Doubt that He'll pull through?
Today was just an off day. I felt blah and eh and...yep, that pretty much describes it. I wished bed time could come sooner because I didn't want to sit around all night feeling sorry for myself. And to add onto that, I realized afresh how much I wanted a horse and how far away I was from ever leasing,  owning, or riding one. Nothing BAD actually happened. I went shopping this morning, had nothing to stress me out, and got to go to see The Voyage of the Dawn Treader as well. But yea, I was still having a bad day.
ANYWAY, why didn't I even consider the possibility that He'd pull through? I think He likes surprises just as much as my four friends do :)
I'm playing piano and my whole family is looking at me (odd) and I can FEEL someone next to me. I finally give up playing the song (after making a good amount of blunders) and turn around and there are four of my good friends! So we had a really awesome night together playing reverse apples to apples and just hanging out.
Again, why did I doubt God?
He WANTS us to be happy. He created enjoyment.
Even when I'm pissing and moaning to Him about how bad my day is going, He loves me so much that He gives me a night I never would have expected.
Praise God, who knows love as a verb :)

Why can't we see God?

Why can't we see God?
First thing that pops to mind is the fact that we would die if we saw Him. So, He's really doing what's best for us by not letting us see Him...
Why would we die if we saw Him? Because we have sinned. God meant for us to see Him, but with sin in our DNA, we simply can't. God can not be defiled even by the sight of sinful eyes. And we are all responsible for our sin, it is impossible to say that it's not our fault. So because of this, we can't see God.
If God made us to see Him, that implies that to see Him is good. And if it is good, it's what God wants. So contrary to what we might think, God WANTS us to see Him. It pains Him that we can't.
So, we cant see God because we are sinful. But He wants us to be able to... So much so, that He came to earth in the humblest of ways (He, who has all the power in the world) and died to atone for our sinfulness. Because of this, we can accept His gift. And when we do, He promises that we will be able to see Him. Not in this life, with our still sinful eyes, but in the life to come, when He has made us pure.
Kinda makes up for not being able to see Him now, even if it is hard right now. :)