Love God. Love people.

As a random little tangent, I want to say this: I had no idea anyone looked at my blog til two days ago I saw all the comments :P but thanks guys :) I appreciate it all.

Anyway.

Today was both a struggle and a joy. Just because I act all perfect does not mean I have a very close reltionship with God. You can know everything there is to know about a person, but if you don't spend time with them you'll never really know them...
I've always wanted to want to know God. I've desired to desire a deeper relationship with Him as long as I can remember. More recently, I have said I'm in love with Him, but looking back it wasn't hardly anything...
On the way back from our mission trip our bus broke down and we got to go to a church service while we waited. Well lo and behold, while I'm singing and later sitting there, I think about something. I had felt ignored on my mission trip honestly... It probably was more my fault than others, but up til this point I was bitter and wondered what was so wrong with me to make it so that no one cared... But anyway I'm thinking and realize: I'm asked to Love people even when they don't actively Love me. I'm sure there were people on the trip in pain like I was —actually, I knew that from the stories some of them had told one night. But that thought process led onto me thinking... What about God? Does He get actively included in those peoples' lives? Does He get actively included in MY life? Not often enough... But it made me have compassion for Him. Feeling for Him. Maybe (honestly, I don't know for sure) but maybe He feels hurt too... But regardless, why wouldn't I Love Him? Dang, it's a priviledge that I all too often take for granted... Best part of the whole week.
What does that have to do with my day today?... Well, I have some emotional stuff going on with friends and such and knew I had to get God first in my life... I had to... So all day I have talked to Him. I have relied on Him. I also was like, "I better read the Bible. But I don't want to hear stuff I've read so often that it doesn't impact me... But I also want it to be relevent to me right now. I want to learn about GOD, not about what I should do as a Christian..." I didn't think there'd be anything. But here I flip open the Bible to a letter from Paul and what do you know? Ephesians is about God! Jackpot. So, one of the highlights of my day. You should read through it too.

"I pray that you, being rooted and established in Love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the Love of Christ, and to know this Love that surpasses knowledge —that you may be filled with the measure of all the fullness of God."

He Loves me so incredibly much, how hard can it be to Love Him back, honestly?