I got this violin about a year ago, wanting to learn to play. Well, we have since learned that the pegs wont stay therefore it can't be tuned. Great.
Well tonight, as I am once again trying to tune my violin, I realize that I can relate to it. While the violin cannot be tuned, I would not be changed. I was stubborn and even if I wanted to, couldn't produce more than a feeble attempt at music/life.
This violin just won't be tuned, and I pretty much need a new one. My life was out of wack and I needed it renewed. Pretty much the only way to fix my violin dilemma is to buy a new one. Which corresponds to Christ paying a tall price to give me new life.... He gave me new life through His blood. If I really were the violin, no one would take any time on me personally and would just discard me from their lives. I'm worthless. But He... He made me new... He cared enough about a messed up, broken, worthless me to give up His life so that I could live to the fullest. Wow.
I can relate to that as well. See, I just got back(tonight! July3rd) from a Christian conference called CHALLENGE 2010: Undo, and restore the original, from Columbus Ohio. Challenge gave me a new a brighter perspective on what it means to be a true Christian. I too, needed to be "tuned" up again. I realized that yes I acceppted Christ at the age of eight, and have still continue to be "sort of" in love with God, I needed to wake up and come to reality....I struggle with purity.(I think all girls can relate to that. lol! =P). I have had this huge crush&have continued to pray for on this guy from my church, for about 4 years now! (& just this last year, he finally caught on that I liked him. guys are so clueless!!jk jk.) When I went to the Challegne conference, there were a total of 5,000 kids(plus grownups). And the majority of the people were guys =O...I tired sooo hard not to stare and think "aww, he's so cute, or he has an awesome hairstyle ect. ect"...But instead Satan took a hold of me, and I have found two guys that really like me, and I like them too.(and that was just in one week!)...For the past 3 years, I have struggled with my thoughts wondering on whether or not the guy likes me outfit, or if he likes my personality. I thought that this was normal for all typical teenagers. BUT....are Christians supposed to be typical??? I learned from the conference that we as Christians are supposed to stand out! But apart from what the world wants from us. I also learned that it doesn't matter whether or not, if you'll get Mr. Prince Charming. God is in control of EVERYTHING!! HE decideds who we will marry. I also thought to myself that in going to a Christian conference, and knowing that there are a total of 5,000 people, and the majority of the people are MEN, then why should I worry whether or not I'll find that Mr. God loving man, when just right before me, there were a gazzilion cute Christian God loving men who want to LIVE for the LORD! =D
ReplyDeleteYou're right Batya, we all need to be "re-tuned" again, and realize that there is no man on earth who could love you completley!! I have been re-tuned, and I don't have to struggle as "hard" as I did before. To all those other lovely and wonderful women, purity I admitt is hard, but it'll be worth it in the end!
I will continue to pray for the guy from my church(to whom, I still really like!) and for the other two wonderful men that I got to meet at Challenge!
Thanks again Batya, =)
..:: Bethany *'