That Much

i didnt cry... much...
that would prove that i was like everyone else.
had done the exact thing i'd condemned.
unacceptable.
so even when i wanted to
needed to
i wouldnt cry.
it was plain unacceptable to cry and prove that i was like everyone else.
i wouldnt accept it.
too much pride.
so i let it out a little at a time
but mostly let it build up
but the thing about healing is that you have to admit you were wrong.
you have to admit you messed up.
tried to take care of it on your own
the thing about true healing is that you have to abandon yourself
let the anaesthetic take over while the Doctor makes some cuts to ultimately heal
He will heal
but the thing about Him
is that He needed no school to learn
rather, He taught stars how to shine
He taught the tide to stay in its place
and He wants to show you the ultimate joy of being madly in love with Him
because He is so madly in love with you that before you even knew Him, He knew you and died in your place
yeah, He loves you that much.